november...let's just say this is memorable...it's good and bad...let me see why...hmmm
*november 1- halloween celebration and we have the same cemetery to visit..we met one time ..but he had to go becoz someone unexpectedly came..but we had lots of fun.i was extra excited that time.cooked chicken ala king so that i could share it with him.and dressed up a little.we held hand and chat.and he kissed me goodbye.
*november 9-17- he texted me.."langga..." and i would usually ask him.."ga, ok ka lng?"..and he told me the bad news "we broke up"..surprised..i was shocked in horror...no, it can't be..how it happened?well, it was because of me...of my stupid text..it started their fury with one another..i met up with him before he went to work..and it was true...he looked sad but he tried to looked okay..he dont want everybody to know about what was going on...i consoled him...comforted..through out the night.. i remember him saying "i don't know if this is the way that we could be together"...he was sober..he even asked his friend to switch work because he cant concentrate well..i gave him options..options that only him can decide..i told him "would you like me to leave you alone with this?" and he said "no, i nid u"..so i got stuck...i tried my best to be only a friend to him becoz i dont want to focus his attention to me..and most importantly i know that he was just mad, he was out of control that he made a decision to break up just like that...i didn't know what to do with him anymore everytime he would share his sadness to me...he would smoke, he would drink...he feels alone...i cant come over to his place of course...so we just texted each other...then came thurs, we went to this place for a drink...becoz he wanted it badly, so i went on his invitation...we had fun, we laughed, we got a little drunk hahaha he dropped me home...without my hommies even noticed hahaha here comes saturday, he told me he'll having dinner with her..he was looking forward for it...he said they will talk about their relationship...if it will be maintained as FRIENDS...and so, i have the biggest doubt abt that dinner and talk...i told him to let me know what would be the outcome so that i would make my exit..and he said "ndi lng para mag stay ka na lng"...i never recieved a text from him all through out the night..worried?yes but i was hesitant to admit it...sunday morning was still no news about him...and then early evening came and he finally texted..he said there dinner went well and he spent the day with her..so do i have to ask?so they got together, had a make up sex and enjoyed together the day after...but again, it didn't stop there...we continued the affair..
november 22-23MN- his bday eve..the usual, we would text the night away..after the clock striked 12am..i immediately called him up and greeted him..."happy bday!!! hehehe" i said, and he blurted "i love you"..i don't know why, everytime he would tell me i love you, all i could do was smile and hahaha kilig!...but on the other corner of my heart was this doubt of the 'i love you'..why is he telling me those things?just because he should?we just had a short talk on the phone...we continued texting each other at around 1-2am...we were discussing abt the 'deal' we made days before...and the payment was to give him a kiss..on the lips...grabe gd ya...and in the middle of the conversation, i told him, i cant wait to kiss him on his lips...and he got excited and cant believed with what i said..and so we planned for meeting up in the morning and somehow do a little celebration for his bday...plus i made a surpise gift for him....morning came..
november23- we didn't have exact plan on what to do...i have to see him and give him his gift..and so we decided to watch a movie together...i got conscious being with him because im having a feeling that we will kiss (my gosh my 1st kiss pa!)..i gave him my surprise gift..it was a complete dvd collection of Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings...i remember him saying it way back that he was looking for that collection..whew! good thing i found it hehe...he loved it..he thanked me, i told him 'happy birthday!' with a kiss on his cheeks...but he lifted my chin and brought it to his lips..and there it was our first kiss together..it was funny haha cute haha and sweet hehe...we kissed like 3-4 times...it was not that torrid since i don't know yet how to kiss hehe but tongues were involved hahaha i would never forget that..how it felt..we did have fun even if it was only couple of hours..he told me that i kissed like a baby...yeah right...he said it was one of his bestest bday gift..or basi gna cha char ya lng ko...after that moment, after heading home.. i didn't hear from him for 24 hours i think...
november 24 6:45 pm- the most unexpected trouble that i will not forget...the phone rang...i was the one who answered it..and the person on the other line was the person that i was least expecting...and then i was doomed...i was shock with that..no warnings, no reminders...it was...unexpected...i texted him right away..what was it all about..he replied what happened..asked sorry for everything..i really didn't know what to do...i was not prepared for it..and most of all, i didn't know what was on his mind that he would tell..or he would at least let me know that he will tell...i need reasons!!!!!!!!
november 25 6pm- My BFF was contacted by him...he asked my number..to say sorry and all that...i gave my BFF the authority to say whatever she has to say...and we didn't give out my number to him...he said he sorry for what he did..that he can't do anything about it..that everything that the text said was dictated by his u know...damn it! everything about you is being dictated and i feel sorry for that..early evening, my BFF was shock seeing this bulletin on Friendster..with my name on it...saying what i did...as well as the shoutout my by his u know...many had reacted on it...and so i kept my self calm abt..
